(458)

I thought that hearing him cry in the kitchen was the most painful thing.
But then I started to distinguish the exact words between sobs and whimpers, and the pain became unbearable.
And I couldn't sleep because all I thought about was how it could be the last time I saw him.
What if it could be the last time I saw him?

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(457)

Is there still anybody who thinks I deserve to be treated with respect?
Ha! Seems I'm just being naive.
'Ask me if I give a motherfuck?!' is today's motto.

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(456)

It's been a while since I stopped caring about the way I look.
I'm too tired of being unhappy because of things I can't change.
Ask me if I give a motherfuck
But sometimes I look in the mirror and that maybe it's a lil' bit unfair.
All I want is to wear purple lipstick, which would actually suit me, and I want for somebody to think that, yeah, it looks pretty.
Is it really that much to aks?

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(455)

I wanna see a battle between Liam and Leigh-Anne called 'Who hates Zerrie most?'

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(454)

I feel like one of those 30+ mums who work on 2 jobs and come home with heavy shopping bags thinking about what to cook for dinner.
I don't even have strength to feel pessimistic about things anymore, I'm just being....I don't know what. I'm just being.
All I really want to do is to curl in bed or on the couch and sleep for a week straight without worrying about everything and everyone. I don't want to have all the problems solved, no, I don't care, I just want to relax a bit, take a deep breath and forget about the whole world for a moment.
But no, kids are crying, boss is angry and an apartment won't clean itself.

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(453) Wouldn't mind if you were by my side.

I wake up, it's a bad dream, no one on my side
I was fighting but I just feel too tired to be fighting
Guess I'm not the fighting kind

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(452)

When the world surrounds you, I'll make it go away
Paint the sky with silver lining
I will try to save you, cover up the grey
With silver lining

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(451)

oh my fucking god
i wish i never did those stupid tests
did i just answer 820 questions to know that im actually a lot worse than i thought?!
oh fuck
i hope so much that i just dont understand these numbers and it actually means nothing
because if it does id probably throw myself off the cliff

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(450)

Seeing one of your heroes fall apart hurts as hell

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(449)

You tell me that you're going away for my birthday making me upset as hell.
Then you say you're staying.
And then you say you're going away again.
Honestly, I have no idea how to smile and say it's okay one more time.

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(448)

Tomorrow really freaks me out.
But if everything goes smooth then things will actually start changing.
So pray for good, yeah?

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(447)

Before teacher saw my essay about friendship: This Lilo quote is perfect here, she'll love it!
After teacher saw my essay about friendship: Well fuck this bitch.

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(446)

Hello, I'm Zayn Malik and I love my fiancee Perrie more than anything.
Who I celebrated my b-day with? Family and Liam obviously.

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(445)

I've always been a bit sceptical about frontmans who do nothing but sing.
But it seems I just have a thing for weirdos.
Happy b-day, Tom Meighan.
Thanks for all the joy ♥

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(444)

Mum asked if it was okay for her to leave on 20.01 and I said I'd be happy if she took this opportunity to travel a bit and that I don't really care about my birthday anyway.
And even though that's true I've still felt the way all the joy was sucked away from me.

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(443)

God bless the person who invented tortilla chips
You're the reason I'm still alive

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(442)

I like how I always say that I have such a great relationship with my parents, how my family is all loving and friendly and then today was just:
-Mom, dad, I'm movin' out!
-Finally.

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(441)

-You should be proud of me! I'm asking for books for Christmas!
-I'm proud of you no matter what you do.

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(440)

That were the longest 7 seconds in my life.
I was just watching her face trying to understand how do I know her and then it hit me. I couldn't even think of stopping myself, I just wrapped my hands around her feeling so so overwhelmed.
How much was it? One year? More? Does it really matter now?
It was simply pleasant to see a familiar face and hear about someone who really tried to find you and remembered all the best moments we had.
Even her pronouncing the name I almost forgot couldn't erase my happiness.
I missed you so much, I. ♥

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(439)

I'm so tired of people treating me like shit.
Of course I'm just a piece of furniture and it is so okay to keep bitching around me.
Of course I'm this stupid one who always tries so hard to be cheerful for someone's sake and, yeah, how foolish of me trying to defend that kind of behaviour, trying to UNDERSTAND each and everyone, trying to put myself on everyone's places. Ira's calm, Ira's patient, Ira's understanding, you can spit in Ira's face and she will find a reason for you to do this.
But I still have some pride in me and I'm not going to deal with that anymore.
I'm fucking tired of people snapping at me while I'm being concerned or worried about them.And I'm fucking tired of being 'not good enough friend' because of this.
Yeah, I'm rubbish but so are everyone.
And that was the last straw for me.